Sometimes it feels like it doesn’t matter if things go oh so well for me, cause I can’t share them with you. Never been in a situation so frustrating as this and there’s nothing I can do. After all this time I still feel as you are my go-to-person. But you’re not. I hate that I let my feelings for you decide on whether I’m gonna be happy for something or not. I hate that it feels like no one ever will compare to you and I hate how I don’t find anyone interesting anymore. I hate that I’m so hung up on you and feeling like a crazy person. Most of all I hate that I don’t have a single reason to hate you. Cause you are amazing. Just not my amazing. Just not mine.